One year in Ibiza

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Today one year ago has been a special day for me. 

“Isn’t it crazy how we can look back and just one year ago and realize how much everything has changed? The people who have left and those that have stayed with us. The memories we’ll never forget: the moments we’ll cherish. The victories, the setbacks. And all this happened in just one year.”

For me, as for many of you, 2015 has been a year of big change. In the beginning of the last year I didn’t know which direction to take, what to do and how to change my life for the better… until I made a choice.

My only thought was: “Fuck it, I’m going to Ibiza again!” 🙌🏻

I fell in love with this little island in the Mediterranean Sea in 2009 when I was working there for 4 month as a hotel guest entertainer (for my studies I want to mention;).

I enjoyed the sunshine, the sea and the island so much that since then I wanted to go back. Something was calling me… so one year ago I knew – now or never.

I realized that when you make a decision from the heart, the universe conspires to make it happen! This quote is not just an empty sentence for me anymore, it really is true! What happened then…
Within a couple of weeks I found a well paid job (site note: finding a job in Ibiza is one thing, but finding a well paid job another… so for the fact that I was looking for a job from my laptop in Germany… I was very lucky).

Next step: finding an apartment. Anyone who has been looking for an apartment or even just a room in Ibiza will agree with me that it can be crazyyy difficult to find something that is – let’s say – affordable. But thanks to Facebook and after many hours of searching and requesting, I found a beautiful, beautiful apartment in a really nice area of Ibiza, very close to my work – 3 minutes away from the office where I was working as a Yacht charter manager. It couldn’t have been more perfect.
Unfortunately I had this place only until the summer so I had to move out.

But guess what? I was lucky again and found another apartment right in time for the summer – next street!!! I was the happiest girl and was wondering how all these synchronicities came about. The answer was simple: I just didn’t stop to believe in what seems to be so difficult. 

Ok, so I made the decision to say goodbye Germany and suddenly I had millions of doubts in my mind! Oh boy!

Shall I really do this? What if I fail? Will I feel lonely without friends and family? Is this really the right decision? Will my fears be bigger than my optimism and self-trust? My mind came up with so many worries.

After some breakdowns, I realized that these were just thoughts to guide me in the direction of what it is I really want and that now is the moment to follow my heart and not my mind. 

I had answers to my worries, yes.

Can I fail? Noooo, because it’s impossible to fail when you are taking action steps towards your desires.

What about Loneliness? Well, being by myself is something that I generally enjoy. I’ve been traveling a lot, so I also knew how it is to be away from home… but moving into another country, not being able to visit someone close to you (until you meet new people) was a little scary thought…

But you only grow through your challenges and my wonderful family and friends support me no matter where I am on this planet. So I faced this fear to overcome it.

Right decision? In the end there is no right or wrong. Whatever decision you make in your life, it will always be the perfect decision for this very moment. You can only get richer in experience.

Now I’m just very glad I jumped into the unknown.

But in the end, one of the hardest things was letting go of a relationship with a person that meant so much for me. I know from the bottom of my heart that the relationship I had was a soulmate relationship and it was one of the most beautiful and most challenging I’ve ever had. And let me tell you… I have some experience🙈  With my 27 years I have been in 4 relationships with almost no break in between. My first relationship lasting for 7 years until the age of 19.

But yes, soulmate relationships do end as well… when you have learned from each other what has been necessary to learn. Then you can let go… in love and with a grateful heart.

So, it was the right time to be by myself for myself!

All good things come to an end. The negative ones as well. When a door closes, another door opens and you are ready for the next beautiful adventure in life.

Well, guess what? The universe was laughing out loud and said: I have another plan for you, darling! Story short: I was bringing my first (!) charter clients to a yacht and met… the captain. Nothing happened from one day to the next, but you can see where the story goes (^_^)

One year can be so full of changes, experiences, growth, gratefulness. If you say yes to life and to yourself.

Why am I writing this?

I wish that everyone is following their dreams. Life goes by so quickly and when you postpone your decision day by day, because of your fears and doubts, you’ll never get where you want to be. Trust in the unknown and that everything will fall into place. No matter how scared or depressed you are.

I am very glad to have experienced aaaalllll ups and downs – the last 5-6 years have been tough and rough and uffff, really challenging for me and I finally feel great and empowered again.
Your hard times they are a blessing! If you want to be a diamond you have to go through them with your head up high… they help you to grow, expand your awareness and your heart.

I may write about my story another day, but we all have our masks and smiles on our face to hide and not face what is going on inside. If we want to grow, we have to face vulnerabilty, shame, fear and many other emotions. You are ok. And then you can become empowered. We should not be ashamed of anything. We should open our hearts for each other, because in the end the other one is you. We are one consciousness, one ocean, one awareness. At least that is what I believe. But no matter what you believe in… trust, love and take some time to zoom out of your little mind that is stopping you to be the greatest version of yourself. That’s what I’ve learned.

All in all life is utterly amazing even if it hurts sometimes. Your superpower is your focus. Choose perspectives that are empowering and listen to what your heart is telling you.

For the future I expect many many more positive changes – not just for me but for many people in this world. If you have been struggling the last years: it will get easier, if you decide to move in the direction of love, everything will be well.

“There is nothing to fear but fear itself”—and not even that.

Have a beautiful day and happy Easter 🙂

xx Sarah 🌸

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Why showing your “ego” isn’t necessarily a bad thing 

Yes, you are special! And you are allowed to feel extraordinary… but as special as you are – so is anyone else as well. There is no such thing as inferior or superior. Nothing in this world can make you more or less special than someone else. Many people say that one can have too much ego: “he shares too much about his life”, “she is too much of an attention-seeker”… but other people’s point of views shouldn’t bother you AS LONG as you know that your behavior originates from a place of love for yourself and others and doesn’t originate from a place of limiting beliefs/ lack perpective. Often times people have underlying limiting beliefs that create this ego behavior that we love to judge so much, but on the other side there are many people who really love themselves, and who see themselves on the same stage like anyone else and that is what we should appreciate and respect instead of criticize. Doesn’t mean you have to be a rainbow-hippie and love everyone. 

Just see that your worth as a person is the same than anyone else’s – no matter how smart or not, educated or not, beautiful or not, self-centered or not…. someone else is. 

The point is: you should be in love with yourself because there will never ever — EVER — be a person in this world just like you. Isn’t that enough reason to be allowed to feel fucking special? Please let no one else tell you that you are not. Go ahead and feel worthy, special, wonderful – unique – in your own way, because this is what the world needs. And when you deeply know this to be true, then you also celebrate other people’s uniqueness and authenticity, you don’t feel the urge to judge quickly or feel offended by others.

See the bigger picture. 

In the end we all care about the same things: our well-being, love, happiness and freedom and this is where we should put our focus. Make the world a better place by loving more and hating less. Be an example. It is nice to see other people happy and in love with themselves; nobody is perfect and everyone has to learn their lessons.  

  

Heart warriors wanted!

What the world urgently needs is more warriors. But not the ones that are full of anger, hate and ignorance. I’m talking about warriors of the heart. People who step up for more kindness, more love and more compassion. People who have such a strong heart that they can feel the pain of the world and still be full of light and love. They don’t let their heart shine less because of all the darkness around them. Heart warriors are people who can see life from a higher perspective … who know that we are all connected and who can go within to stop, reflect and open their hearts (instead of closing) … because only then can a person make wise, loving and smart decisions that are not just in the interest of himself, but in the interest of everyone.

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Everyone can be a warrior of the heart, but only the wise ones decide to be one. Because they know this is the key 🔑  the key to a more loving world 🌍, the key to a more beautiful life.
Be the light. Be the change. Be the love

Oh what a gift

I was just looking outside my window, looking up to the stars… traveling into the vast universe in my mind. I love to do that… I turn up some beautiful music and breathe deeply, focusing on my heart area. This always helps me to realize how truly, truly special it is to be here on this earth. Being alive is a miracle, a gift. YOU are a gift! There will never ever be someone like you on this earth, not in 100000 million years. You are unique and special and you should be proud of yourself. Allow yourself to do what you really love, share your talents.
Yes, life can get really messy, life throws challenges at us we think we can’t handle; we experience hurt, sadness, anger, doubt, chaos, fear,.. and yet, life is absolutely beautiful if you are willing to see that. It is always, always your perspective (your vibration) that decides how easy/ or uncomfortable life feels. No exceptions.
Daily life can distract us from realizing and truly enjoying this gift of beingness, so I hope, you too, look up to the stars here and then, to acknowledge that this moment is really special, no matter the circumstance that you might be going through.. thank life for being alive and enjoy this journey as much as you can!

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I wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

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I want to tell you a little bit from my last year. 2014 has been extremely challenging, and I’ve spent most of the time in deep self reflection, with reading, learning, studying, surrendering and in meditation. Last year there hasn’t been a day without any of those mentioned activities. This is how I’ve learned incredibly much about myself and I was asking myself why I had been so asleep all the years before, just weird.

It was kind of like getting to know myself for the first time in my life. The moment you wake up, the moment you start searching for a deeper truth, the moment you decide you want to claim more of your power – and for me this process has already started in 2009 – all the unconscious stuff is coming up and you get the chance to change and transform. You have to, because there is no way back, haha 😀 So I’ve worked through limiting beliefs, trauma, pain, loss, anxieties, … (and no, it’s not over yet, but I feel I’m on a good way) and I also wanted to understand how we create our reality; why we act like we act; why everyone feels so unhappy and afraid and wears so many masks; why we can’t easily change if we so desperately want to change… I had and still have so many questions.

Your past and your relationships are the greatest teachers. Everyone you meet is a teacher.
During this time what you need most is self-compassion, patience, an open heart, trust in something that is bigger than you, and an openness to vulnerability. I think I never had any of these characteristics before, so I really needed to learn to open up. And man, nobody told me how difficult this would be and sometimes you feel like everything is getting even worse but deep down you know that everything is perfect when you are doing your best and … big change takes time.
You will need time to understand, to process and to integrate – the mind will tell you the opposite, but you will learn that
1. never trust your mind without having questioned it (heart and mind always have to work together)
2. some things work fast, yes, but sometimes you still need to learn a lesson.
So in 2015 I want to share more lessons with you, because I believe sharing our experiences and knowledge can help others immensely. And everyone will encounter a time of growth sooner or later. Always feel free to reach out and ask questions.  Many of you already have contacted me and I want to thank you for that. I know the world opens up even more in the future.

So this year, let’s do more of the good things:
Let’s laugh a little more, have more fun, let’s take life a little less serious, let’s spread more love, and in general let’s choose love more often (instead of fear), let’s step into our power more often, let’s enjoy stillness more often, let’s worry less about what other people think about us and have a little more compassion for yourself, let’s see and appreciate the abundance and beauty around and within us a little more often, let’s open our hearts a little more, let’s become a little more alive, and let’s be a little more grateful and happy.

Sending LOVE your way / wherever you are

xo Sarah

How much do you gossip? And why?

Gossiping. We all do it, at least sometimes. Most often we do it in complete confidence without even thinking about consequences and without even questioning why we do it.

I recently got really aware of situations where I was talking negatively about other people or were I was with others who were gossiping and I noticed more and more that I always felt bad when doing so or when I was these people. No wonder. Complaining or talking about other people in a negative way creates negative emotions. Sometimes it makes you feel better in the first place but deep down it creates separateness.

There are many people who are judging and hating and criticising everyone and everything not recognizing that if they judge, they are also judging themselves; not realizing that if they hate, they are owning this hate themselves. What you focus on expands and if you focus on all the bad things (in the world and especially in other people) it’s what you’ll experience and see, too. There is so much beauty out there waiting to be recognized and appreciated. It’s all about your perspective, every apparently negative thing holds something good as well. There will always be good and bad, that’s life and that’s how we learn about what is wanted and desired, that’s how we evolve.

I realized it is easy to fall into this trap of being more outside than inside, it somehow satisfies the ego for some time but in the long run you’ll definitely be happier when first checking in for your own emotions and vibrations, caring about your own problems instead of other people’s stuff. We only help the world when we be the change we wish to see. There is so much you can learn from your emotions and thought patterns. Having an opinion is totally fine but always remember that what you judge in others is something you have inside yourself otherwise you wouldn’t give a damn about it. We don’t grow and heal through hate, we only grow and heal through love.

 

Life is supposed to be fun!

Being alive is a gift, it’s a miracle. Daily life can be tough, stressful, terrifying and unpleasant, but we can always choose to re-focus and see things from another, a greater point of view.
You probably didn’t know it yet, but the entire universe lies inside of you (YEAHH!!) and if we remind ourselves again and again how fucking magnificent and stunningly beautiful life is, we eventually see our daily problems and challenges from a different/ lighter perspective.. we don’t take everything so seriously anymore and feel grateful for just being alive:)

Life is supposed to be fun!!

We will then see that life – in general – will get more delightful, epic and exciting.

A new day, so many possibilities

I regularly receive messages from “the Universe” – you’ve probably heard about it: http://www.tut.com/inspiration/nftu

These emails are full of wisdom, beautiful thoughts and inspiration. It’s kind of having a coach who reminds you of how magnificent you are and how beautiful life is:)

This is a message I received a few weeks ago and I am sharing it because I never thought about time this way:

There’s so much time in a day, Sarah.

You could have breakfast, lunch, and dinner on 3 different continents.

You could outline the book you’re going to write, start the screenplay adaptation, and watch “Gone With The Wind,” before the sun even sets.

Spend a day at work, and still have 16 hours left over.

Or you could just think 60,000 different thoughts as you tool all over Hamburg.

Hey, the record for climbing Mt. Everest is under 9 hours, leaving 15 to nap and go Yeti searching. There’s so much time in a day, Sarah. So much.

You’re rich,

The Universe

It’s true. Every day is a new beginning. A new chance. Millions of choices you could make.

Often times we live in our routine and forget about all the possibilities that are offered by life. But we can take the time to “check in” and this is important to realize our freedom. What is it that you truly want? What is important to you? Are you living according to your values? What actions steps would you need to take towards your goal? How do you want to spend your precious time?

When we appreciate the time we have and fill each day with a purpose, and when we do the things that make our heart smile, we live a truly fulfilling life – no matter what we do and no matter where we are at this very moment.

You’re rich.

“If Tomorrow Starts Without Me” – a poem

I want to share this beautiful poem with you.

Live. Love. Laugh. Forgive. Enjoy your journey.

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me…

If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not here to see,
If the sun should rise you find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you
And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.
He said my place was ready, in heaven far above
And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned and walked away a tear fell from my eye.
For all my life I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do.
It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays the good ones and the bad.
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
When I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.
When I walked through heavens gates I felt so much at home.
God looked down and smiled at me from his great golden throne
He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you”
Today your life on earth has passed but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last
And since each day is the same there’s no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
You have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts with out me don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.

– Michael Heart

Realize

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You are absolutely unique and you are a miracle.

Have you ever thought about the fact that there will never be another person on this planet just like you? – EVER (!)

No matter what people might say about you, you have special talents and gifts that are needed in this world now and no matter how bad you might feel, you are the light that is able to transform all negativity that is going on inside you. If you are truly willing you can transform from a caterpillar into a beautiful butterfly. Believe in your uniqueness and you will not just feel more authentic but also the oneness with everything.

Beauty and abundance is always all around you.

When you realize this and enjoy the ride – when you open your heart and consciously experience life with all your senses – you will see that life is full of wonders – every moment is a gift in and of itself.