How I successfully completed a 9-year cycle and how life is always guiding you in the right direction

In Numerology they talk about the 9-year cycle – the last one having started in 2008 and ended in 2016. Personally speaking I’m not a big fan of Numerology and Astrology, or rather I don’t like to be put in a box, neither do I like to pigeonhole things, but somehow you can always find some truth for yourself, right? While I was writing this post I had this thought about the 9-year cycle popping up in my head and yeah … here is my story.

New beginnings. 2008.

The year I started to study International Tourism-and Event Management; and the year I’ve had a life-changing car accident that I survived thanks to all my angel buddies up there.

Then in 2009 things really started to shake up.

The night from the 5th to the 6th of January – I remember as if it was yesterday: It was the first week of exams — but simply too many — and I felt so much pressure and panic. The university I went to was private, so that probably was one of the reasons why I gave myself so much pressure. It was the beginning of a year-long journey of sleep disorder, depression and anxiety.

In the same year my mom went through a heart surgery which we were not sure about if she would survive. Growing up with my moms many diseases I was used to being the strong and optimistic girl for her and everyone, but this wasn’t easy of course and I’m so glad to see her so healthy today after almost 29 years of my life and 51 years of her life ❤

2009 was also the year I visited Ibiza for the first time and where I fell in love with this island. I recently said to someone: “It felt like coming home.” Back then – in Hamburg – I was looking for a 4 month-internship abroad for my studies. I had no idea which country I should choose, but thought “Spain could be nice for a few months”. 🌴🌞 So I opened Google Search and the first result was a job offer in a party hotel on Ibiza which almost everyone in my class knew about, except me.

I applied, went to the interview, got the job.

“Let’s see”, I thought.

Office and Animation: Taking care of guests, doing stage performances and games, dancing and being fun all day/ night long, (almost) no sleep. 🤐 Nobody told me about the latter, neither did I know or was I prepared for how daily life in a party hotel looks like 😅 It was a fun time – though up until today I’m not sure how I / we survived that, but when you are around your 20s anything is possible 😉 During these few months I kind of denied/ forgot all my challenges and inner chaos; well, I absolutely had not a free minute to care at all. So they came back even stronger after my time abroad.

During that summer I didn’t really see anything from Ibiza, except the hotel, but the energy of the island made me come back every year after that until one day in 2015 I decided to say “Goodbye Germany” 🇩🇪—>🇪🇸👋🏻

Because… again, Life somehow guided or let’s say “pushed” me to go follow my dreams and leave my comfort zone.

With that said 2009 being the year of the beginning of my spiritual journey and Dark Night Of The Soul 🌑 I remember how my Grandma gave me the first self-help book I’ve ever opened; The Power of The Subconscious Mind by Joseph Murphy – a book that she always looked into during difficult times, she said to me. I was very curious because I’ve always been very fascinated by the topics that go deeper.

Interesting… how you REAL-EYES in retrospect: everything is connected, everything makes so much sense. ✨

In this period of 9 years I’ve experienced uncountable days of inner hell, not knowing how to emotionally survive the next day, how to go to work, how to go shopping, how to look another person (anyone!) into the eyes, how to speak about that and make another person understand what’s going on (so I didn’t even tried). – Sorry to many friends if you ever wondered why I haven’t been really present in your life – The simplest things in life were now the hardest. I was so ashamed of the fact that I could be seen as “weak”, having been the “strong” girl all my life. — I thought, “Who am I now with all those problems that not even I was able to explain?” Every time I tried to put my experience into words … these words didn’t do justice to what my experience really was like.

In the beginning of this cycle I’ve experienced days where I didn’t wanted TO BE alive anymore because of the suffering; it was so exhausting, and I had so much darkness coming up that it was very tough to keep on shining my light. But I never gave up. I always knew that all this has to make sense, will be over one day,.. the solution must be there.

These years felt like being in a giant dark labyrinth that you are trying to figure out for ages. Sometimes you think you finally got the right way out (and all seems .. yeah … kinda ok) and then you realize and have to admit that you are still absolutely lost, feeling frustrated and alone. But I made it through. It took me 9 years (can’t believe I’m writing this! 9 😳😧) until feeling emotionally stable and really good again – I went from one inner challenge to the next inner challenge. And now it feels surreal writing about it.

Additionally during these years I’ve went through a soulmate relationship that was the biggest catalyst for my growth, one of the most difficult experiences of my life so far, but also absolutely beautiful because of all the love and compassion I’ve felt inside of me. People might think a soulmate relationship is meant to last forever but often this is not the case. However, they are the most powerful, beneficial, deepest and challenging relationships you will have – they are magical because you can’t put your head around the fact that these people that you feel so deeply connected with actually exist – they will serve you in a most profound way. And also… there are many “soulmates” and maybe even deeper connections in your life.

Honestly, looking back to my past self, I’m very proud of how far I’ve come – maybe not so much on the outside as I could have; like in regards to my action steps on building something etc (I know that’s relative), but very very far inside.

“He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying.”

I know (and probably always knew) that this period was the biggest gift I could have received, because I learned so much about myself, about life, about others. 🎁 There was NOT ONE day in these years where I didn’t actively decided to grow, learn from other people and teachers, read, reflect, and dive deep. SERIOUSLY, NOT ONE. It became my passion to learn more about the mind, emotions and consciousness. I’ve went to doctors, body workers, past life coaching, and personal growth workshops all over the world and followed my inner guidance system step by step. My biggest wish was to understand all this chaos and myself – the darkness and the light.

Nowadays I see how many people are waking up (i.e. the process of ending suffering) and it’s so wonderful and important to know that we are never alone, that we are all on the same journey, that we have to share our story, be compassionate, and need to learn from each other.

I must admit that this seeking for answers made me a bit tired of going to workshops, healing ceremonies etc – not because I think that there is nothing else to learn, quite the contrary, but I think everything needs a balance and having invested so much time of my life “taking in” and being there for myself, it’s now time to “give” as well. First you have to fill your cup and take care of yourself to be able to give. This might also be another stage where we learn on a completely different level.

I’m at a point where I stopped seeking actively, a point where I feel awake and en-lightened (meaning: feeling lighter; not feeling superior or further than someone else), hopefully able to help other people somehow or at least sharing more with the world.

The learning about yourself and life will never end, and I find that there are always new areas I like to explore… most interesting for me are the different stages of consciousness and other topics in personal growth that I never had the energy and time to explore further.

But first you will have to wake up, to all the illusions and lies that are going on inside and without.

First comes Self-Realization, then Self-Actualization.

I‘m writing this because many people have always only seen me smiling, and I know there are many souls out there who are suffering emotionally and psychologically tremendously – you will never see what someone else is going through – and I just want you to know that this too shall pass❤️ I have so much compassion for you, my friend. Darkness must be exposed before it can be healed and released.

“That which has to give light, must be able to withstand burning.”

And it’s not always solved by just realizing you are not your thoughts and you are only suffering because you are identified with mind; your thoughts and emotions, which you are not. At this stage of my life I believe that this does work at a certain stage, yes, but not in every case. Sometimes things are a bit — more complex, like life itself. So if you ever think that you are crazy, because people make it look so easy, and you ask yourself why years of meditation and realizations don’t bring you to the happy life you wish to live (again), don’t worry – you are not crazy. You are closer to where you want to be like ever before🙏🏼

I guess we are lucky if we are going through a difficult time nowadays because through the worldwide conscious shift, trauma and thought can be healed faster than ever before. We reached the next level.

Anyways, if you ever feel like reaching out to me, please do so. I will be very happy to share with you my story.

However it’s only my truth and I’ve done so many things that I can’t even know for sure what IT was that has helped me be and feel the light again, that I am and that we all are in our essence… but I know the healing stages I’ve went through. I took a holistic approach towards it. My truth doesn’t have to resonate with your journey. And I also like to say: I know that I know nothing. And in regard to any personal growth advice: just because something is working for so many others, doesn’t mean that it has to work for you. We are all unique.

End. 2017.

I’m forever grateful for this intelligent invisible force that is within us and everywhere around us, guiding us and loving us 💛

To a brighter and lighter future for everyone xx

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Light and Darkness go together

“She had to break apart before she could find the treasure inside.” ~ Mark Anthony ❣️

It’s very true that – without darkness we could never appreciate the light for we would never know the opposite of it. So when you are going through a phase of challenges and difficulties, remember that it’s just temporary and that there is always a hidden treasure. These times always give you a chance to grow – your inner strength, your willpower and your consciousness 🌀💎

Change your perspective, don’t take on the victim role, take positive inspired actions and this will change your life 💗

Ready for change

I wrote this article in reply to a post from the Facebook page “Humans of New York”.

In this post a smart young boy says:

“I don’t think I’m going to miss eighth grade. It’s been a tough year. A lot of my friends are struggling with depression and self-harm, and it’s hard for me to watch. I just care about them so much. Growing up is so hard for some people. It’s such a big thing. It’s your foundation, I guess. You’re becoming you. It’s such a big thing and we’re going through it right now. Some of my friends are struggling with loving themselves and loving life. I think they forget that we’re still learning. They think that they’re already who they’re going to be. They think they know the future. And it’s going to be horrible. And they’ll never be able to fix it. But that’s not true because we’re still changing. And we’ll always be changing. Even when we’re old, we’ll be changing.”

These are my thoughts:

Honest and caring words from a young boy whose worries represent the life of thousands, if not millions of young people in the world. Growing up shouldn’t be hard for anyone, children should not experience depression and struggle with self-love.

How much better would the world be if every child could enjoy and connect their childhood and teenage years with playfulness, joy, ease, time in nature, feelings of gratitude, creativity, happy years of growth, years of connection and love, filled with dreams and ideas… at least, for the major part.

It’s true – we’ll always be changing and we need change, actually we’re everyday another version of ourselves – that’s the beauty, WE CAN be whoever we f** want to be.
And it’s especially time for the change of our school systems and their way of education, it’s time to start teaching what is most important to live a healthy, successful, happy, and fun life. This young boy, Logan Laplante, sums it up pretty well in his TED X talk. He says, “why is being happy and healthy not considered education?”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h11u3vtcpaY

and explains why

Exercise
– Diet & Nutrition
– Time in Nature
– Contribution & Service
– Relationships
– Recreation
– Relaxation & Stress Management
– as well as Religious & Spiritual Involvement

are fundamental educational areas if we want to live a happy life.

“Most education is orientated … towards making a living rather than making a life” -Laplante

This quote is absolutely true — unfortunately.
That’s why these areas are SO important for any child, and we really have to start focusing on education in these areas, because this “inside learning” prepares us to cope with all the challenges that we are confronted with during our life, they hugely influence how successful, and of course, how HAPPY we can be in life. They are crucial no matter what religion, country or “status” a child is coming from.

Children from today are living in a completely different time and world compared to only a few years before – now everything is constantly changing ALL THE TIME, there is so much distraction, so much happening, so much to reach for … and a constant unconscious bombardment of “you’re not (good) enough”.

“What’s certain is that the world is changing faster than at any time in human history.” – Philip Stephens

We’re not even talking about how many children and teenager experience anxiety, self-worth issues, bullying, depression, panic attacks, etc. We can prevent all that.

The educational system is stuck in a loop that perpetuates and supports misery and depression. If we would add a little bit of love to it, the change we want to see in the world can actually be possible.

We’re now experiencing everything and everyone on a much higher level than ever before and we really need to start to empower children instead of discouraging them, instead of not giving our 100% and gifting them with the life they and everyone deserves to experience – they need us for that and it’s important for the future of every human being as well.

Let’s finally wake up and focus on what’s really important and.

“It’s easier to build strong children, than to repair broken men.” – Frederick Douglass

Another video that sums it up very well:
Youtube – Prince EA

I’d love to hear your thoughts as well ❤

Thank you Life 

Its been two years this week since I left Germany to move to Ibiza – is it just me or does time fly the older you get? (www.maximiliankiener.com/digitalprojects/time/)

 2 years and I’m still very happy I made that – rather spontaneous – decision. 

Moving within Europe might not be a big deal for many as it is not the other side of the world (like Hawaii where I lived for half year in 2010 to study abroad), but moving into another country was a big deal for me as I decided to move alone and to take a new direction in life. The good thing with studying abroad is that you easily connect with people on your university, you usually already have a social life … that’s different when you move somewhere to live and work, at least in my case as I didn’t even had colleagues in the company I worked for in the beginning. 

When I left Hamburg it was because it was just the right moment to do so. Since 2009 I always knew I wanted to move here, so I thought “now or never” following the quote “Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” I have to admit, back then it felt kind of like running away from all my challenges, but what I needed was a change of location to be able to make a big inner change as I was already growing every day in the best way I could.

The day I left. 3 am in the morning. Having packed my luggage last minute, I said goodbye to my old home, my previous boyfriend – not really knowing how to say goodbye without breaking down, leaving with a heavy but really grateful heart, all at the same time. It was exhausting and confusing. Yes, I was looking forward to what lied ahead of me, but I was scared as well. 

My parents brought me to the train station, I almost missed my train… boy, that would have been the last thing I needed.

It was a pain to take the train from Hamburg to Barcelona via Paris, to stay in BCN for two days… and to take the Ferry from Barcelona to Ibiza afterwards but instead of taking the plane and arriving within 2,5 hours, this train-journey helped me to be clear about the step I took and get ready for what lied ahead of me, it helped me to let go.

One part of me didn’t want to leave my home town, my family, friends, and my relationship I had back then… yet the other part of me really wanted to leave… I just knew I had to. There was no other option. Additionally, since I was struggling with many personal challenges, I also didn’t want to get out of my comfort zone and back then really everything felt like getting out of my comfort zone as I was feeling huge amounts of anxiety and hopelessness. Anyways, I knew I needed to follow this inner calling and like I described in a blog post exactly one year ago, it was so important to do so.


Another huge reason why I moved was to get more clear about what I really want to do, in a business kind of sense. Now fast forward two years later, I gave up “figuring it out” and instead decided to just go with the flow of life and with what feels right. That “something that really will make a difference” will come, Im not in a hurry and anyways, life is getting better and better everyday. 

Now I would like to say thank you. Thank you to life, my family who is always there for me even when far away, and to my partner David who supports me in everything I do. I really can’t say where I would be without him… Would I still be here or somewhere else in the world? I have no idea. He is not just my partner, but also a real friend and I appreciate all that he does. (I hope he reads that 😉)  I don’t know where life will lead us, but I’m just grateful ❤ 

David grew up here on the island and showed me the real side of Ibiza which really changes the whole story. It was all supposed to be, right!? Life is just so damn smarter than us.

We just opened a little healthy cafeteria/ juicery here in Ibiza, Sant Antoni to bring some ideas we learned in Germany to local people and to the thousands of tourists who visit Ibiza in summer. Many people are living in a more conscious and healthy way now and as you probably know: changing the way you eat, as well as taking care of your body can really have a profound impact on yourself, your emotions and your growth. I will soon write another blog article about this topic as it is so important and helpful for many people who go through tough times.


My message is: 

If you ever decide to move somewhere else, all alone, you will encounter challenges. These challenges can be small or big: 

you can’t express yourself the way you want to express yourself in another language; 

you might discover how difficult it is to connect to people who just are not interested to open up to “new people”;

it can be difficult to live in a place where the costs of living are exorbitantly high; 

and of course, you will discover that life is just different when your friends and family are not around, when you have to start at “0” but it is an amazing experience for which I am so grateful for. 

There are always challenges, but how slightly you move through them depends on how loud you say yes to them and how determined you go for your dreams. 

I love to travel and there is still so much I want to see from the world but Ibiza is my special place – so far this island has given me so much love.. I have exciting jobs, I’m meeting amazing people, make great experiences and I connected deeper with myself. I’m falling in love with this island every day all over again – and I don’t regret any second.


Love, smiles and sparkles ❤

S

About Compliments

A few weeks ago I visited the Wake Up Festival here in Ibiza and as I was watching people dancing and enjoying the day, a beautifully dressed women started to ask me questions.

She had a postcard and a pen in her hand and wanted to know where I come from, how old I am and what I am doing here in Ibiza. So I told her and she started writing…

For minutes she was looking at me in silence as if she reeeeally wanted to know who I am… She didn’t ask me any more questions. She just looked.

After she finished writing, she looked up again and read to me:

Dear Sarah,

do you realise how powerful you are?

And then you show me your beautiful smile and the heart can do nothing than burst open! I would instantly fall in love with you. I am actually.

Your soft, beautiful heart touches.

You are like a bright star that brings light in any darkness. I can see you don’t attract the dark! Keep it that way or transform those!

Be a guide, a teacher of love ❤ – Compliment girl

I didn’t even know what to say. That was really.. beautiful. I thanked her a couple of times, she smiled and then walked away. “Be a guide –  a teacher of love” – that’s it! I asked a question and here was the answer.

Giving compliments can so easily brighten someone’s day. How rarely do we take the time to give compliments, to truly see someone and give them the gift of appreciation? We don’t even have to necessarily know that person. We just need to be quiet and look.

This experience didn’t just give me an answer to a question I had in mind, it also reminded me to speak positive thoughts out loud more often. You never know when a few kind and sincere words can make ones day or even have a great impact on another persons life.

Hugs, 

S

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Believe in magic


We are living in an universe that we know nothing about, but the facts we do know about the universe make us speechless. Same goes for our bodies, nature and life in general.
“Magic” happens everywhere, all day long 24/7. Just look!! Especially inside of yourself. Your body is a wonder. We have more cells in our body than there are humans on planet earth… much more!! Each of our cells is made of more Atoms than there are stars in the known universe. And you know what? Each atom is just 99.9999% space. You are not even real 😂 Now just try to picture that every human being is performing one task just for you and this is what is happening inside your body every millisecond! You are so alive – even if you don’t feel like it, you are. Do you want to feel it for a second? You can. Your breath, your heartbeat, your organs working, your movements, everything inside of you is pure intelligent life force.

How comes that so many people still believe in “I just believe in what I can see, in what has been scientifically proven, in what is “real” (if there is anything like that) 

Can you see how your cells move, how your body heals itself, how the universe expands, galaxies and light moves, how energy moves when we fall in love, how you body stores energy when something traumatic happens to you, how trees communicate with each other (yes they do!) ???

No, you can’t and yet it all happens.

I still see so many people living with all their limiting beliefs from their childhood – never inquiring, not taking any responsibility for their lifes. And it’s okay, that’s how it is and I don’t want to judge that, but please don’t blame anyone else for your circumstance. We focus too much on our circumstance, on what we DON’T want instead of what we WANT. We give away all our responsibility. Do you know that you are constantly creating your future with your state of being? Forget about your circumstance for a second and focus on your desire or on the fact that you ARE – as easy as that – by letting go of all thoughts for 3 seconds (that is even more powerful) – let go of all arrogance – because otherwise you remain in a loop – just repeating all that you already know. If you want to create a new future you have to create a new state of being. That’s why complaining, worrying, negative news, fear, … just add to all that we don’t want. It’s counterproductive. Yes we learn through the experience of light and dark, yet we keep on focusing too eagerly and too long on what we don’t want and that is why we humans evolve not as fast as we could (I guess). If you want to run a marathon and you are constantly focusing on how difficult it is, how many people are not going to make it, on what could possibly go wrong,… yep, you probably won’t make it.

I’ve been doing a past life session this year and the women who guided me in and out of it told me I’ve lived 686 lifes!! This really blew my mind, but I really believe that… old Soul 😇 Why? Because it empowers me.

And for me it feels like having lived through many lives and experiences in the past. We need to go through so many experiences to grow and learn. 

So in this life I get to pick the fruits: my light and my focus are my (super)powers. Yours as well btw. It’s all just a thought anyway. A thought -something that comes and goes like a cloud in the sky, a wave in the ocean. I am more than that. We are the ocean. In each and everyone of us is so much potential, infinite possibilities.

I know it takes some energy to observe, question, reflect, release… and it brings us out of our comfort zone, but it’s necessary if we want to change. 

That’s why I say, we should learn to focus from an early age on. When we are young, we are more open, we learn faster and have more time to create our future. Oh, there is so so soooo much potential!!

You just have to look inside and you get many answers. But many people don’t even start with that. 

I ask you: do you really, truly feel happy and blissful and full of love at least once per day? I don’t say every second, but just for a few moments? If not, then you can see that something is going very wrong here. 

We are here to learn through contrast, but our natural state is bliss and most people live in an “average-mood-state” if not … worse.

And I don’t exclude myself. Sometimes I probably am one of the most fearful and insecure persons in this world, but I can see where this is coming from, where I have to go and that this is my own responsibility. I have chosen this and I can choose differently. My character is nothing that can be described as steady, you are forever changing and you can be whoever you want to be.

When something is “negative” in your life, you can choose how to see it. You can choose your state and therefore your future. This takes willingness, dedication and application of knowledge that we learn far to late in life and mostly only when we are already in a crisis (later in life).

We “waste” a lot of time. There is no right or wrong, but we can just be so much more effective – if we wanted. 

We go to school for many, many years but we miss the most important lessons, because nobody teaches them to us:

How to focus, how to change limiting beliefs and how they have been created in the first place (we carry them so long with us that it seems very difficult to change them), how to be successful, how to feel good, how to cope with negative feelings and thoughts/ change them, how to respect others, love more, be the best version of ourselves…

I envision a future where children train imagination, create more, have more flexibility, more rest, we should talk more about our desires, challenges, and our fears… our masks and why we wear them. 

Like this we can grow to strong adults, we learn to have more compassion, and especially to have the foundation to build an awesome life… to be ready and prepared.

You can do whatever you want to do – there is no right or wrong. But you can choose to suffer and be a victim or take all chances by the hand, make use of your potential, help others, be empowered and live the most amazing life you’ve ever had 💝

One year in Ibiza

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Today one year ago has been a special day for me. 

“Isn’t it crazy how we can look back and just one year ago and realize how much everything has changed? The people who have left and those that have stayed with us. The memories we’ll never forget: the moments we’ll cherish. The victories, the setbacks. And all this happened in just one year.”

For me, as for many of you, 2015 has been a year of big change. In the beginning of the last year I didn’t know which direction to take, what to do and how to change my life for the better… until I made a choice.

My only thought was: “Fuck it, I’m going to Ibiza again!” 🙌🏻

I fell in love with this little island in the Mediterranean Sea in 2009 when I was working there for 4 month as a hotel guest entertainer (for my studies I want to mention;).

I enjoyed the sunshine, the sea and the island so much that since then I wanted to go back. Something was calling me… so one year ago I knew – now or never.

I realized that when you make a decision from the heart, the universe conspires to make it happen! This quote is not just an empty sentence for me anymore, it really is true! What happened then…
Within a couple of weeks I found a well paid job (site note: finding a job in Ibiza is one thing, but finding a well paid job another… so for the fact that I was looking for a job from my laptop in Germany… I was very lucky).

Next step: finding an apartment. Anyone who has been looking for an apartment or even just a room in Ibiza will agree with me that it can be crazyyy difficult to find something that is – let’s say – affordable. But thanks to Facebook and after many hours of searching and requesting, I found a beautiful, beautiful apartment in a really nice area of Ibiza, very close to my work – 3 minutes away from the office where I was working as a Yacht charter manager. It couldn’t have been more perfect.
Unfortunately I had this place only until the summer so I had to move out.

But guess what? I was lucky again and found another apartment right in time for the summer – next street!!! I was the happiest girl and was wondering how all these synchronicities came about. The answer was simple: I just didn’t stop to believe in what seems to be so difficult. 

Ok, so I made the decision to say goodbye Germany and suddenly I had millions of doubts in my mind! Oh boy!

Shall I really do this? What if I fail? Will I feel lonely without friends and family? Is this really the right decision? Will my fears be bigger than my optimism and self-trust? My mind came up with so many worries.

After some breakdowns, I realized that these were just thoughts to guide me in the direction of what it is I really want and that now is the moment to follow my heart and not my mind. 

I had answers to my worries, yes.

Can I fail? Noooo, because it’s impossible to fail when you are taking action steps towards your desires.

What about Loneliness? Well, being by myself is something that I generally enjoy. I’ve been traveling a lot, so I also knew how it is to be away from home… but moving into another country, not being able to visit someone close to you (until you meet new people) was a little scary thought…

But you only grow through your challenges and my wonderful family and friends support me no matter where I am on this planet. So I faced this fear to overcome it.

Right decision? In the end there is no right or wrong. Whatever decision you make in your life, it will always be the perfect decision for this very moment. You can only get richer in experience.

Now I’m just very glad I jumped into the unknown.

But in the end, one of the hardest things was letting go of a relationship with a person that meant so much for me. I know from the bottom of my heart that the relationship I had was a soulmate relationship and it was one of the most beautiful and most challenging I’ve ever had. And let me tell you… I have some experience🙈  With my 27 years I have been in 4 relationships with almost no break in between. My first relationship lasting for 7 years until the age of 19.

But yes, soulmate relationships do end as well… when you have learned from each other what has been necessary to learn. Then you can let go… in love and with a grateful heart.

So, it was the right time to be by myself for myself!

All good things come to an end. The negative ones as well. When a door closes, another door opens and you are ready for the next beautiful adventure in life.

Well, guess what? The universe was laughing out loud and said: I have another plan for you, darling! Story short: I was bringing my first (!) charter clients to a yacht and met… the captain. Nothing happened from one day to the next, but you can see where the story goes (^_^)

One year can be so full of changes, experiences, growth, gratefulness. If you say yes to life and to yourself.

Why am I writing this?

I wish that everyone is following their dreams. Life goes by so quickly and when you postpone your decision day by day, because of your fears and doubts, you’ll never get where you want to be. Trust in the unknown and that everything will fall into place. No matter how scared or depressed you are.

I am very glad to have experienced aaaalllll ups and downs – the last 5-6 years have been tough and rough and uffff, really challenging for me and I finally feel great and empowered again.
Your hard times they are a blessing! If you want to be a diamond you have to go through them with your head up high… they help you to grow, expand your awareness and your heart.

I may write about my story another day, but we all have our masks and smiles on our face to hide and not face what is going on inside. If we want to grow, we have to face vulnerabilty, shame, fear and many other emotions. You are ok. And then you can become empowered. We should not be ashamed of anything. We should open our hearts for each other, because in the end the other one is you. We are one consciousness, one ocean, one awareness. At least that is what I believe. But no matter what you believe in… trust, love and take some time to zoom out of your little mind that is stopping you to be the greatest version of yourself. That’s what I’ve learned.

All in all life is utterly amazing even if it hurts sometimes. Your superpower is your focus. Choose perspectives that are empowering and listen to what your heart is telling you.

For the future I expect many many more positive changes – not just for me but for many people in this world. If you have been struggling the last years: it will get easier, if you decide to move in the direction of love, everything will be well.

“There is nothing to fear but fear itself”—and not even that.

Have a beautiful day and happy Easter 🙂

xx Sarah 🌸

Why showing your “ego” isn’t necessarily a bad thing 

Yes, you are special! And you are allowed to feel extraordinary… but as special as you are – so is anyone else as well. There is no such thing as inferior or superior. Nothing in this world can make you more or less special than someone else. Many people say that one can have too much ego: “he shares too much about his life”, “she is too much of an attention-seeker”… but other people’s point of views shouldn’t bother you AS LONG as you know that your behavior originates from a place of love for yourself and others and doesn’t originate from a place of limiting beliefs/ lack perpective. Often times people have underlying limiting beliefs that create this ego behavior that we love to judge so much, but on the other side there are many people who really love themselves, and who see themselves on the same stage like anyone else and that is what we should appreciate and respect instead of criticize. Doesn’t mean you have to be a rainbow-hippie and love everyone. 

Just see that your worth as a person is the same than anyone else’s – no matter how smart or not, educated or not, beautiful or not, self-centered or not…. someone else is. 

The point is: you should be in love with yourself because there will never ever — EVER — be a person in this world just like you. Isn’t that enough reason to be allowed to feel fucking special? Please let no one else tell you that you are not. Go ahead and feel worthy, special, wonderful – unique – in your own way, because this is what the world needs. And when you deeply know this to be true, then you also celebrate other people’s uniqueness and authenticity, you don’t feel the urge to judge quickly or feel offended by others.

See the bigger picture. 

In the end we all care about the same things: our well-being, love, happiness and freedom and this is where we should put our focus. Make the world a better place by loving more and hating less. Be an example. It is nice to see other people happy and in love with themselves; nobody is perfect and everyone has to learn their lessons.  

  

Heart warriors wanted!

What the world urgently needs is more warriors. But not the ones that are full of anger, hate and ignorance. I’m talking about warriors of the heart. People who step up for more kindness, more love and more compassion. People who have such a strong heart that they can feel the pain of the world and still be full of light and love. They don’t let their heart shine less because of all the darkness around them. Heart warriors are people who can see life from a higher perspective … who know that we are all connected and who can go within to stop, reflect and open their hearts (instead of closing) … because only then can a person make wise, loving and smart decisions that are not just in the interest of himself, but in the interest of everyone.

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Everyone can be a warrior of the heart, but only the wise ones decide to be one. Because they know this is the key 🔑  the key to a more loving world 🌍, the key to a more beautiful life.
Be the light. Be the change. Be the love

Oh what a gift

I was just looking outside my window, looking up to the stars… traveling into the vast universe in my mind. I love to do that… I turn up some beautiful music and breathe deeply, focusing on my heart area. This always helps me to realize how truly, truly special it is to be here on this earth. Being alive is a miracle, a gift. YOU are a gift! There will never ever be someone like you on this earth, not in 100000 million years. You are unique and special and you should be proud of yourself. Allow yourself to do what you really love, share your talents.
Yes, life can get really messy, life throws challenges at us we think we can’t handle; we experience hurt, sadness, anger, doubt, chaos, fear,.. and yet, life is absolutely beautiful if you are willing to see that. It is always, always your perspective (your vibration) that decides how easy/ or uncomfortable life feels. No exceptions.
Daily life can distract us from realizing and truly enjoying this gift of beingness, so I hope, you too, look up to the stars here and then, to acknowledge that this moment is really special, no matter the circumstance that you might be going through.. thank life for being alive and enjoy this journey as much as you can!

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